Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I Am Not a Saint

Yes, we adopted three children at one time.

We're not the first to do this,

nor will we be the last. It's not easy.

There are issues -- lots of issues.

Sometimes (actually a lot of the time) I can't tell if the issues are adoption related or just kid related.

I have to tread carefully.

Sometimes I have a hard time loving them enough.

Other times I love them so much it hurts!

I have still not developed enough patience.

I still relish the peace and quiet -- although I'm not sure I remember what that is :o)!

I love the little girl hugs,

cringe at the little girl whining,

and laugh at some of the complete silliness that is little girls.

I am blown away (in a positive way) by some of the things that these girls are capable of, and

I'm blown away (in a negative way) by some of the things that these girls are capable of.

It's a learning curve for each of us -- for all of us.

We're suddenly parents of seven children.

It's not easy. It's interesting.

It's exhausting.

It's rewarding.

It's where God wants me to be, but I'm not a saint.

Our girls aren't lucky -- we are.

Although we prefer to call it blessed.

15 comments:

  1. Yes, just keep praying. Each day is fresh.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Beautiful, transparent.honest, thoughtful...
    prayers daily for you as you live out grace daily.
    Blessings my friend,
    ~a

    ReplyDelete
  3. Deborah,

    Wonderfully and so poetically written.

    Enough said.

    ReplyDelete
  4. Love this, Deborah! And yes, blessed... I prefer that too! :-)

    BTW, I meant to tell you that if your girls miss certain Filipino foods, pre-packaged ones that is, there are lots of Filipino grocery stores here in the GTA... I can send you a package. Let me know...

    ReplyDelete
  5. Beautifully written... :)

    May the Lord bless you with strength and fill your days with laughter and joy. :)

    Some day you will look back to these days and wonder where the time went... Amazing, really....

    You are abundantly blessed!

    ReplyDelete
  6. It's not easy, I know- believe me I know. It took 6 months for things to really get better for us, but that is our situation and of course we still have plenty of issues. I have always said that the hardest part is weeding out what's an adoption issue? What's an orphanage issue? What's a neurological issue(in kim's case)? What's a trauma issue? What's a malnutrition issue? Slowly, a lot through trial and error, we have been able to sort some of that out. And parenting is ever evolving with an older child adoption, ever changing. Ahhh-the quiet, the easiness of raising kids who were pretty self sufficient...the further you get away from that old life the easier it will be. Hold on to knowing that you are exactly where God wants all of you to be. Doesn't mean it will be easy of course but all things are possible through Christ who strengthens us. Please feel free to talk with me if you ever need to!! The girls are beautiful!!

    ReplyDelete
  7. I feel that I can relate to alot of what you said but I only have one child and not seven so I can't really imagine walking in your shoes. The girls really are blessed too to be in such a wonderful family and you are blessed to have such wonderful girls! Take care!

    ReplyDelete
  8. This is amazing! I'll be praying for you and your family, and for all the adjustments. Have a wonderful day Deborah!

    ~Michlyn

    ReplyDelete
  9. Beautifully stated. You're parents of 8 children if you count Mav. ;)

    ReplyDelete
  10. Beautiful words shared!! I don't care what you say I think your amazing!!! ~Love Heather

    ReplyDelete
  11. Well said. That was beautiful.

    ReplyDelete
  12. ((((hugs)) to you, sweet friend.
    Just catching up on my blog reading. So good to hear what the Lord is doing in your family and so very happy they are with you. You are right. We (the parents)are the ones who recieve the blessing.

    ReplyDelete

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I love to hear from my readers!

LinkWithin

Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...